Just a Little Something About Love…

If there is one thing I feel I’m relatively good at writing about it’s love. Anything related to love, like, boys, relationships and the whole process of falling for someone is something I can express and love talking about. So it’s no surprise that after reading an article on love, I felt the need to give my opinion on it.

Some friends on Facebook posted this article: Why Casual Dating is Ruining Us All.

Now I have mixed feelings regarding this article. As I started reading this article I was nodding my head strongly agreeing with what the author was talking about.

“We were born into a generation centered on an ever-expanding growth of technology.”

Yes. That is true we were born into a world that is constantly improving technology, creating things we never imagined were even possible.

“Where our parents were wearing each others letterman jackets and mailing love letters, we—yes, the rejected, sad, lonely 20-somethings—are exploring Tinder for “something casual” and staring wide-eyed at the ellipses on our iPhone screens, praying that what we just typed, thoroughly and totally without autocorrect’s help, doesn’t make us sound like the emotional wrecks that we actually are.”

Now here is the first issue that came up on my radar. Firstly, can we just all agree generalizing that everyone has IPhones is just simply incorrect. I am proudly an owner of an Android and getting very frustrated at the incorrect terminology. People need to start realizing that the correct terminology would be smartphones not IPhones. (Sorry for my little Anti-Apple rant)

Secondly, there is a lot of mixed feelings from this point on. I absolutely agree that starting from our generation people are so focused on their technological devices that sometimes people forget there is even life beyond the screen.

The truth is, people are too scared to put themselves out there. Here’s an interesting point regarding that: As I’ve met more and more people in the world from different backgrounds and nationalities, one thing I’ve noticed is very apparent. Typically the people, male and female, who are scared to put themselves out there, in terms of love, are generally Americans. Europeans and Latin Americans for the most part have no trouble displaying emotions. This is true from the moment you meet one of us, we give you a kiss or a hug. We don’t even know you and here we are breaking every boundary of personal space and awkwardness. That automatically puts you at ease and makes you more comfortable to share how you really feel. And as far as the Asians I have met, most of them are quiet but when it comes to relationships they hesitate less to get into them. But Americans seem to be so terrified, as if getting rejected or hurt would tear them apart and end life as they know it. It’s really quite interesting that in a country that fosters so much freedom, the one people seem to lack is the freedom to express your feelings towards those you like. Sorry for the diversion of the topic, back to the article.

And the next few paragraphs go on to describe how much our generation has changed due to all this technology added into our day to day. I will gladly say, I am very guilty of not liking talking on the phone. I prefer to text over calling any day. But that doesn’t necessarily mean that I am dead inside. And if a boy I liked called me, you better believe I’m answering that phone.

The article continues on to describe how because people are scared of commitment and rely so heavily on technology that it’s started a culture of casual dating. Yes and No. I do think the technology can be to blame in fostering this kind of culture. But also a lot of it has to do with personal choices and freedom. We’re not just evolving technology but also every decade things seem to get more liberal and people take advantage of that freedom to do exactly as they wish. And just because you are interested in casual dating it does not mean that you are completely opposed to serious relationships.

I think different moments in your life can reflect your choice in relationships. For example, I am at a point in my life where trying to start a serious relationship is not the best choice for me. So I am in the boat of 20-somethings having fun in casual flings. Doesn’t mean if an opportunity for a serious relationship came up, I’d reject it.

Basically, I think there are people in the world who do both. There are people in world who are too scared and therefore stick to the casual, so they don’t get hurt.  And there are people who would never do anything casual and would only get into serious relationship. I think an article generalizing the entire generation fits into one category is just wrong. I do get that the article was trying to say that the culture we live in now fosters this more laid back and non-commitment choice.

Now comes the part that I disagreed and was almost offended by it.

“But, I propose that those rule-breaking, anarchist crazies are indeed still out there, hiding under a rock, where the shame of their fully-beating hearts aren’t on display for the rest of the robots. And they’ve almost given up. They’ve been burned and bruised, but aren’t quite broken. Let’s be those people, it’s not too late. Let’s refuse to believe that romanticism is dead and buried.”

First off, I am a romantic through and through. (And I think it’s pretty clear based on the entries I write.) So, to say that we are in shame, is just absolutely completely insulting. I am a proud romantic (and I’ve met PLENTY of proud romantics) who has a wonderful life. If anything I try my best to spread the romanticism in this cynical world. It is true that we’ve been burned and bruised and that we’ve gotten close to giving up when things are really bad. But the beauty of it all is, just like a phoenix we rise from the ashes with new hope every time. We hold on to hope and the idea that there is something great and magical out there. And i do appreciate you trying to convert people to our ways. Because honestly it’s a beautiful life. While people ask us how do we do it, the better question is “why don’t you?”

So my rant ends here. And I will leave you all with quite possibly my favorite part of the article.

“So, this is for all the people who ever screamed that they loved someone at the top of their lungs. This is for the people who would tell someone that they’re magic, just so they knew. This is for the people in our generation who don’t like the casual, don’t want the casual, but the oh-so-scary, unexpected, beautiful, ridiculous feeling that comes from loving someone, from being loved. It’s for the people who still believe in love letters and letterman jackets, and the people who ******* call.”

Much love always.

Fate Will Have It’s Way


So I like to think I’m pretty open to anyone who reads this page. Well, today’s post will be another one of those where I open my heart to all of you and tell you what’s really going on. So strap in and let’s go on this ride together.

The past two posts I’ve made have been about a specific boy, and all those posts have been exactly how I feel towards him. I don’t want to give too much detail, because I am afraid of judgement. (C’mon I am only human.) But I will say this, I have seen him twice in the past week and to say it was magical is an understatement. Seeing him makes me feel excited, nervous, butterflies in my stomach and much more. The great thing about it all is as soon as we talk, everything goes away and I am absolutely comfortable. He is an incredible human and I may not know him well enough, but my feelings are true and real. (Gut feelings you know?)

But yesterday, something came to my attention which left me upset, to say the least. It seems, he has a girlfriend. Now, I’m not saying he was actively out there flirting with me, while the whole time he’s had a girlfriend. But there is absolutely no denying that there is something between us. So, as you can imagine this news came as a bit of shock. Like a normal girl, my eyes welled up and there were stings in my heart.

While I thought about all of this, I thought about what this all meant. Because being the person I am, everything in life has a reason to be happening. Suddenly, my romantic side had an explanation. Nothing in life is worthwhile if you don’t have to fight for it, you wouldn’t appreciate it as much. And have you seen a great love story if there wasn’t a struggle/conflict. Now, I hear all the realists and skeptics out there rolling their eyes and saying “oh no, this girl is so delusional.” But hear me out. If you are the kind of person that follows your instincts and gut feelings, you’ll know exactly why I’m saying what I am. When you know, you just know. And you are 100%, absolutely, positively sure. You can’t explain the why, or how but it just is.

So here’s my rational: He’s happy right now and if you care for someone you want them happy. So he’ll be in the relationship for a while. And he’ll learn and he’ll grow and go through everything you do in a relationship. Now I have no confirmed details and I don’t know her personally, but there are a lot of things that I can see as future problems. (Am I rationalizing this for my own benefit? Maybe. Am I giving myself excuses to still believe in this? Maybe.)

But you know what, it’s fine. Because in the mean time, I’m going to sort my life out. I have goals and dreams I want to fulfill in my life. There are so many things in my life right now that just don’t make me qualified to be in a relationship. (That’s the realistic rational Vicky speaking.) There are places I want to live and things I want to do, that being attached to someone wouldn’t allow me to fully enjoy them. I want to live abroad for a year, and long distance could potentially destroy the relationship. So while he’s happily in this relationship, that for my sake, won’t last forever, I’m gonna do me.

And as an individual I think it’s okay for me to say that. To figure out my life first. Having my own life can only benefit me. He’ll find me more appealing and I’ll have my things I can be proud of. Now, I hear many of you saying “You won’t be swearing off guys as a whole, right? You’ll still give other guys a chance.” And the truth is I don’t know. In my (delusional) mind he’s perfect for me and with the way my brain works, I’d only compare him to everyone else. (But you’ve never really been with him, and you’re idealizing a relationship based solely on what you know! Are you crazy?)

Here’s the full truth. In my mind I’ve always had the idea of what a perfect guy for me would be. Or at least what I look for in a guy. Now sure, there are qualities you can’t be sure of until you’re actually with them. But most of my list is actually based on seeing how they are with other people and how they act with strangers.( I think that actually says a lot about a person) So if I I go down my list (maybe I’ll write it out on another post sometime) he basically checks off every single aspect from the ‘things that are necessary’, to the ‘things that I’d really like’, to the ‘these aren’t necessary but they’d be nice’. And I think part of me has always known. I’ve been in long relationships and short ones, and there’s always been things missing. Almost as if my heart was telling me, “he’s not it, there’s someone better out there”. Like, my heart has known it all along that it was him. (Whoa, V what the heck are you even saying. You’re saying this guy you don’t really know is the love of your life? Man, you really are crazy.) I can’t know anything for sure. What I do know is this, life has a plan and fate will play its part. So meanwhile, I’m going to go out and live my life and do what I want to until it’s time and fate brings the right person to me, (Which you seem to imply is him…)

Meanwhile I’ll have my days where I’ll be very sad about the situation, and others like today where I’ll feel motivated. But whatever day it is, I’m going to really live my life. I realize this post to people who don’t know me or don’t understand how I work, may sound delusional and maybe even psychotic. All I ask is that you trust me. But more importantly the message of this post is this: always, always, always look for the bright side. There is always a bright side. Sometimes you might have to dig a little deeper. I’m going to go out into the world, accomplish things that I want to for myself and be proud of it. When the time is right, fate will present my perfect man (which I really hope is actually him) and then I’ll be ready. I think I have rambled on long enough today. Look at that 3 posts, in the same week! It’s like Christmas! (Or the diary of a crazy person!) Either way I hope you enjoyed it! Please feel free to leave comments below!

Much love always! 



Is It Really Possible?

In this world there are realists and dreamers, or at least that’s what people say. I believe a person can be a healthy balance of both. For example, I consider myself a mix of both. More often than not, I do go with dreams and taking chances. Because if you live in the “realistic” world all the time, it can get a bit depressing. You need dreams to make you fight for something greater and believe in destiny, fate, and amazing things. That’s my thought anyways. 

Realists often don’t believe in love at first sight, or a lot of things relating to love being much more than just a feeling. The dreamer side of me believes in all that and more. I believe that there is one perfect person for everyone out there in the world. Which is probably why I stress out so much, because I’m in search of my perfect man. Don’t get me wrong, I think there are a lot of good matches out there in the world that you could live a perfectly happy life with, but there is only one PERFECT person for you. 

I say this because I THINK I found mine, except he doesn’t know it. I don’t know him well enough to be absolutely positively sure, the realist side of me says. But in my gut, I know. Which leads me to the “THINK” status I’m in.

Who is this guy you might ask? Well I won’t say much but I’ll say this: he’s wonderful. He’s kind. He’s funny. He’s family oriented. There is a shine in his eyes that shine brighter than the sun. His smile can light up a whole room and make you forget all your troubles. When he looks at you it feels like no one else exists in the world. I admire him. He is talented. His hug makes you feel safe. He’s confident. He’s unique. He has personality. He has his fashion style and is completely unapologetic for it. He’s a reader, an explorer. He’s thoughtful. He’s silly. He’s someone I’d like to spend every day smiling with. He’s the person I want next to me, when I just can’t handle life. He’s the person I want to wake up and realize I’m the girl for him. He makes my heart beat at a million per second. My hands can’t stop shaking around him. He makes me see how beautiful this world really is. And I can only hope one day we can be together and enjoy this big world around us.

You’re probably thinking, is this person even real? Yes he is. Do you know him personally? Yes I’ve met him a few times. Does he know how you feel? Nope. And the reason for that is simple. I want things to evolve naturally from a friendship to a partnership. And when the time is right, I’ll take that chance and tell him everything I did on this post. Just know, whatever happens in this life he will always have a very dear place in my heart. My dreamer side reassures me that this life has great plans for me, and it’s in fate’s way that we will ultimately end up together. For now though, my dreamer and realist sides can agree on one thing, fight for what you want. And I will. 

Much love always.

Those Perfect Blues

The sunlight hits your eyes and you turn to face away from the window. As you do,  you open your eyes just enough to catch sight of a perfect view. A view you’ve always dreamed of. The soft lines of his face lay relaxed as he takes in deep breaths in his sleep. The blanket positioned in the middle of his perfectly toned back, leaving his shoulders bare. His irresistible figure teasing you. His hair messy from tossing and turning through the night. You lay there admiring the boy you love. You enjoy taking moments like this to just appreciate how lucky you really are. To you he looks like the perfect angel that was placed on Earth just for you. The love and happiness he makes you feel is more than you ever imagined possible. You reach out, grab the covers and pull it over his shoulders tucking him into the warmth of the little world your bodies created. You then gently caress his hair, partially to make sure you’re not dreaming and partially because it was one of your favorite things to do. The softness and thickness of his hair prove that this is as real as the air your breathing. A hand gently snakes around your waist and pulls you closer. He opens his eyes slightly to look at you. His eyes are bluer than the sky and shine brighter than an ocean on a beautiful summer day. You get lost and mesmerized looking into those beautiful blues. He places a kiss on your cheek. You lay there in your beautiful home that was all yours with a boy that loves you more than life itself. Everything is perfect. You close your eyes to take in the moment. When you open them, you’re in a dark room. The boy that was laying across from  you is standing in front of you talking to you. You just saw the most perfect life with the most perfect boy you could ever imagine. And you know right then and there that you would make this dream become a reality no matter what it took.

*Play this song after reading:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w1oM3kQpXRo*

Written by yours truly. much love always.



I figured it out. I figured out why women are always so worried about ending up alone. Why women rush to get into relationships young. Why women want to get married young. I have found the answer!

The older I get, the more I tell myself I’ll find someone, while an uneasy feeling starts developing in the pit of my stomach. There’s a slight sense of insecurity developing that I might not actually end up finding anyone to be with. Which most people would tell me I’m insane because there are SO many guys in the world, there’s bound to be one out there for me, right?

Well, here’s what I’ve noticed. At work, I am the person who mostly deals with the guests that arrive. Therefore, I am the first to notice if they are attractive or not. This week alone, two guests that I have found attractive have come in through the door. And they were maybe a few years older than me (ideal age for mature serious relationships). And they were either engaged to be married or with someone.

Seeing that less and less of the guys you find attractive are actually available is in fact the reason you become paranoid you will be alone forever. That’s the magic answer. Girls want to get married younger, so they can secure the guy they actually want. They want to make sure they select the best pick, and once they start doing that the selection becomes slimmer and slimmer. And sure these are only 2 guys, but also a lot of my friends have now been in long term relationships. Some friends have already gotten married. And I’m reaching that age, where girls begin freaking out.

If any guy reads this, let me put it into perspective for you. Gym class. We’re playing dodgeball. The two captains are picking all your other classmates and slowly the pool of kids starts getting smaller and smaller. You look around to see you are one of the few still standing there alone. You are not part of a group, part of a team, you are on your own. You think, no one will pick you. You start to feel rejected, sad and alone. That’s how it feels for the rest of us.

Could this be an over exaggeration? Sure. Are there still thousands of single men out there? Yes. Are any of them my type or would fit well with me? I have no idea. And honestly the thing that keeps me going is the fact that I’m a big believer in fate and that things will happen when they’re meant to.

But yeah, guys next time you start to make fun of your friends that are girls who are freaking out about being alone, just know it’s because we feel exactly like I described above.

Just thought I’d share what pops into this crazy mind of mine. Hope you enjoyed!

Much love always.


Happy Birthday Little Brother!

Hey hey everyone,

So today has been a weird day. Today is my brother’s birthday. As you may or may not know my brother passed away just this past August. It’s been a hard and strange year to say the least. And today he would have been 22 years old. Now me and my brother are/were 18 months apart. And not having him around has been very strange at times and sad at other times. But his memory lives on, therefore to my family and I, he’s not really gone.

But what’s strange about today is for one simple fact. Most people would assume today would be a horrible day and that I’d be crying all day. And I was actually more sad on my own birthday than I am today. On my own birthday I was sad, because I had another birthday and he didn’t. Which I didn’t think was fair. But today I feel jittery.

The way I chose to honor my brother is to live my life to the very fullest. To do incredible things and appreciate the time I’ve been given. And today I feel very ambitious. I feel like I should be out in the world doing things. Like for example I haven’t made a video in 6 months. Which I have missed. And I have a lot of footage I need to edit. I sort of hate editing, it’s so hard! But today I feel like I could be at home editing videos. Or organizing my room which is a mess, because of the move. Or doing all sorts of other things. So because of all that I feel like sitting in a desk, answering phones is so not how I should be honoring him. And with all that I feel empowered and actually optimistic about the world.

I could be sad and I could be crying all day. But I’m choosing to do exactly what my brother would want. Which is to really live my life and be happy. I am planning exciting things for my life and I want to make them a reality. So I guess for now all I can do is plan. But that doesn’t take away the fact that today I want to be productive in my own life. So it’s looking like my channel will finally have a new video up! 

Anyways, I hope you are all having a wonderful life. And as cliche as it is, you do only live once so enjoy it and live it to the fullest.

Much love always,



World Cup Jerseys Ranking (in my opinion)

Unless you’ve been living under a rock, you know that the World Cup starts tomorrow. As a Brazilian I am ecstatic!!! My home country hosting my favorite global event! Even though there is so much controversy associated with it, I want to focus on the excitement and happiness associated with it. (I am slightly sad I can’t be there to watch in person.) So today an article (Click here) on Facebook caught my eye regarding the World Cup. This guy wrote an article ranking the different country jerseys. I obviously disagreed with quite a few so I thought I would make my own rankings. ENJOY!! :)



Okay so this is the ONLY one I’ll be completely biased about. But let’s be honest, they’re beautiful. The home jerseys are our classic staple yellow and green but done so beautifully and elegant. And the away ones are gorgeous. The dark blue done with tiny dots, gives it an awesome illusion. Like I’m indecisive about which one to buy. I like them both so much. Plus we’re the hosts, so let it be number 1!

2. France


So even though they are one of our rivals, there is no denying these jerseys are clean and beautiful. The French aren’t ones for crazy over done things and I think this captures them perfectly. And once you see them in the field, you will be able to recognize it immediately. The subtle stripes are very elegant.

3. Ghana


I actually really like this set of jerseys. They kept ties to their traditional African roots with splashes of brightly colored patters. But its done in a very tasteful way. The home one is classic with hints of fun. The away one, even though it has a pattern throughout the whole shirt it’s done a very subtle way. Good job Puma.

4. Holland


The oranges! One thing is for sure, only the Dutch can pull off orange jerseys. I like that it’s a plain orange, or else it can get really bad really fast. The away one has a great pattern and gives a normal blue shirt a pop.



It is quite an eye full, but its memorable. As soon as you say “oh the team with the red and white checkers shirt,” you immediately know they’re talking about Croatia. They used a bold pattern and made it in a great way.

6. Portugal


Even though I’d still like to a see a bit more of a hint of green on their home jersey, their jerseys are still pretty sweet. I really like the pattern on the home jersey.

7. Korea


Clean, simple and incorporates all the flag colors in both jerseys.

8. Australia


Even though their home jersey resembles my home country, you can’t deny that they are good looking jerseys. Personally I prefer the away jersey. (So that Brazil could be the only yellow gold shirt. )

9. Greece


Nothing special but the collars add a bit of elegance to these otherwise plain jerseys. Still they look good.

10. England


Can you tell I have a preference of simple versus busy shirts. But I actually really like the collar on the home jersey.

11. Switzerland


Again clean and subtle. I actually really like the red cross in the middle of the home jersey. And I am most definitely not opposed to the skin tight shirts. ;)

12. Ivory Coast


I agree more could’ve been done. But with these colors, it’s hard to keep a balance of good and too much. I do like the pattern on the shoulders and in the underarms.

13. Ecuador


Looks like a good old traditional soccer jersey. You can never go wrong with a traditional look. And I rather like the small elements this jersey sports.



I know some people might actually not like the crown on the bottom of the jersey but I actually kind of like it. It makes the red jersey stand out. If there was one thing I would change it would be logo placement. Other than that I rather like the jerseys.

15. US


It took me a while to place this jersey mostly because I’m not a fan of the away jersey. The home jersey is very similar to the old ones which work. I can’t explain why I don’t like the away much because it’s just block colors but I just don’t. Other than that they’re relatively good jerseys.

16. Argentina


As much as it pains me to put Argentina rather well qualified, they’re traditional light blue and white stripes are a staple. They have been revamped with the hint of gold, and sadly they look good. (okay maybe this one is biased too…) But I’m not sure how i feel about the multi tone blue stripes. I guess they look good?

17. Uruguay


Yay more tight shirts! This one is simply placed lower, because of the v-neck on the away one and the weird cut on the neckline of the home one (it almost looks medieval). Other than that they look good!

18. Chile


They would definitely have been ranked higher up if not for the extra red line on top of the away jersey. It looks like a tank top under a shirt. Other than that the home jersey is what I remember the classic Chilean jerseys to look like.

19. Bosnia and Herzegovina


They look like traditional ordinary soccer jerseys. So even though they don’t stand out much, they don’t look bad.

20. Costa Rica


Not crazy about the design in the middle but I don’t hate it.

21. Nigeria


Don’t love it, don’t hate it. They look like traditional jerseys.

22. Algeria


Really not a fan of a logo on each chest. I think one logo and the puma logo would have been enough. And it is lacking some design to it. It looks like a plain Under Armor shirt. I would have actually made the away shirt the home shirt.

**The next few ones were a struggle because they have good home jerseys but horrible away jerseys.**

23. Mexico


Great home jersey, but what is happening with that away one? I actually would’ve made the black dark green? Maybe it would’ve looked better? I guess all i can say is ??



The home jersey is the same one we saw last world cup. It’s the Germany jersey we know and love to hate. :) Take it as a compliment Germans. But the away jersey is just confusing. I don’t get it and I don’t like.



Spain why, oh, why? Must you do this to me? Spain is usually the 3rd team I root for (after Brazil and Portugal). The first Jersey is beautiful. I love the gold accents. But the away one is just a big no, no. It looks like a practice jersey or what goalies wear (which never match the team). You are the reigning champs, you could have done so much better!

26. Russia


For this one I’ll use the line of the original article: “The home kit features an elegant design that ultimately looks good. Unfortunately for Russia, the pair is let down by the away kit. The white shirt features a blue arc at the top of the chest that is a reference to the curvature of the Earth as seen by Yuri Gagarin in space. But this is the World Cup, and after a few beers you’re not thinking about space. You’re thinking it looks like some drunk tie-dye that you attempted in your backyard.” (Original Here)

27. Italy


All I can say is this: It’s supposed to be a soccer jersey not a baseball one!

28. Japan


The home jersey is actually pretty cool with the rays. But the away is just awful. NEON SHOULD NEVER BE PART OF THE WORLD CUP! Enough said.

29. Colombia


Sorry Colombians but this jersey just doesn’t do it for me. It looks like a generic soccer jersey and not even a good one at that.

30. Honduras


This is the big leagues, and that is not up to par. The home jersey honestly looks like a school uniform. Maybe something you’d be required to wear to gym class. There is soooo much you can do with white and blue. 

31. Cameroon


I give an A+ for effort. But the truth is this jersey looks way too busy and distracting. Maybe if the contrast was more like the yellow one, I wouldn’t dislike it as much.

32. Iran


Again I give an A+ for effort but this was a fail for me. And I’ll tell you why. You see that not so subtle cheetah, yeah I have that same design on a dress of mine. Take that in. That design is on my dress. That should tell you that it probably shouldn’t be on a World Cup soccer jersey. I get they wanted to do something different and cool. This was not the way to go.

I hope you enjoyed my expert fashion opinion (NOT). Either way, let’s all just get super pumped that the World Cup starts tomorrow! :)

Let me know what you think! If you agree or disagree with my jersey ranking!

Much love always!

Expressions are everything in Dance


So often times when people talk about a great dancer they will say things like “you dance from your soul” or “all your lines were perfect.” And all those things are very important when you dance. But there is one thing that very often gets overlooked, facial expressions. Now, I am by no means a dance expert (regardless of how many hours I watch SYTYCD, DWTS or youtube videos) but I can offer an honest spectator opinion. When I watch someone dancing, I go on the journey with them and feel what they express. Therefore, if its a sad dance I feel sad or if its a celebratory dance I feel enthusiastic. But if you watch a dance performance, watch the dancers face. A good dancer will wear their emotion on their face.

A few weeks ago, I stumbled across a post that was floating all over Facebook. I watched it once, then I immediately watched it again. I went on to watch the video another 3 times. It’s a whole crew dancing to several different songs.The dancing throughout the entire video is just absolutely perfect. All the dancers are perfectly synced, which is incredible difficult when you have about 10-15 dancers. Then I realized one of the songs they danced to, is a song I really really like. So I watched that clip another few times. The clip is from 2:45 to 3:35. All in all I have watched this one specific minute over 20 times. The thing about this specific dance is the main dancer. He dances to the violin version of Drake’s Hold On, I’m Coming Home. Which in itself is just beautiful. But what got to me was throughout his dance, his facial expressions basically made him irresistable. This song is a love song, and he treated the dance as a love song. In the song Drake is longing for someone he loves, and the dancer treats the spectator as exactly that. My two favorite bits are actually the simplest dance moves. At 3:12 his hands and in the air, he has an adorable smile on his face while he lowers his head and gently moves side to side. It’s almost like he is taking in the music and just enjoying it. Similar to what you would see someone do in the moment at a party with the girl you like. Then he pulls some incredibly amazing dance moves. At 3:24, he has his hand on his head and slowly raises his arm to point at “you.” But more than that he bites his lip as if to say “you are so incredibly sexy and I can’t believe you’re all mine. I’m so damn lucky.” And then some more awesome moves and the dance is over. In my opinion this dance is way too short. But in the one minute that boy danced, he went from not even close to my type to being so irresistible in my eyes. And honestly, he steals the show for me. I have to make an effort to see the other dancers because I can’t stop watching him.

From the Front Row:

From a different angle.


I hope you enjoy it!! :) Let me know what you think.

Much Love always!



PS- Here’s another one of my all time favorite performances:

When Life Gives You Signs

Hey Guys,

So for the past few weeks, I have been begging life for any sign of what direction I should take. And up until today I had not seen anything promising. Nothing that could give me any answer of what I should do. And then today something amazing happened. I believe I got a sign.

My best friend from high school texted me. Before I say anything else, let me preempt by saying the first three things we bonded about when we met was: Jonas Brothers, Jesse McCartney and England. We went to a Jonas Brothers concert together, which was my first concert ever. We talked for hours about Jesse McCartney. And now I can finally say we are willing to share an experience of a lifetime together regarding the third thing that bonded us together from the minute we met.

About 3 hours ago she sent me a text, where my jaw literally dropped. This is how the conversation went:

Her: “Do you have any plans for January?”
Me: “Um none that I’m aware of. Why?”Her: “Wanna go live in London with me for 2 months?”
*Jaw drops to the floor.*

It has been my dream to go to London, since I can remember. I have dreamed about visiting, but never in a million years did I think I would have the opportunity to go live there. Even if it is for 2 months. That would be such an incredible experience. And who better to share it with than someone who has the same appreciation as me for all these things.

I’ve always envied people who are not afraid to just take a leap of faith. I have done it a few times in my life, but I’ve always had some sort of safety net. This time it would be simply jumping. No safety net, no security, nothing. But that’s what makes it exciting. The fact that I have no idea what could happen.

As soon as my friend suggested it to me, I immediately went into “responsible Vicky mode.” Which means, I have no idea where I’m going to be? How will my parents ever be okay with this? How am I going to sustain myself? Will I even be able to get a visa? What if I have a job and I can’t take time off? Should I even get this excited, if there is a chance this wont be able to happen?

And so I immediately turned to someone who has recently become a life coach/guru of sorts, my cousin. She is the type of person who takes chances and takes leaps of faith. And more than that, she’s been my cheerleader in whatever it is I decide to do. So, of course, I turn to her for advice on what I should even do. Thankfully, her response was simply: GO! She pointed out the fact that I have no real obligation right now and that now is the time for me to take opportunities like this. Something I’ve always said to my parents to support any decision I try to make. But more importantly, she pointed out how I’d been asking for a sign. And this was my sign. “You never know what could happen. You could end up getting a job there and living there permanently.” OMG how amazing would that be!

I then proceeded to talk to my co-worker bestie here. She also said “I think you should do it.”

So taking in what everyone around me is telling me, and what my heart is screaming: YES, I’M GOING TO DO IT.

Even if my parents are unhappy about it. Even if it means for the next 7 months I will have no life to save up for this. Even if it means that at the end of 2 months I come home jobless. I WILL DO IT. Because an experience like this, with your best friend is not something you can easily pass up. Not when it makes you so happy just thinking about it. Not when everyone around you is saying YES!

And the best part is: I plan on vlogging the whole thing! And it will be the best experience of my life.

I’m ready to strap in, and take that plunge! And I am so excited!

Let’s take on this adventure.

Much love always,

23 and Tired

For the most part, I consider myself a relatively happy person. But funny enough the hardest part of my job is pretending to be happy all the time. As a receptionist, you are the face of the company. You have to constantly deal with anyone that walks in or calls and all the employees and you have to seem happy all the time. And I say “have” because if I don’t then I get the question of “what’s wrong?” or “are you okay?” And let’s face it those are as annoying as ever. Because my genuine response is not one people want to hear. My genuine response would be; “No, I’m not. I work at a job that I am way too over qualified for. I have to answer phones which i something I hate. I deal with rude people sometimes. I am living at home. I have no idea what I want to do with my future. And I’m more lonely than you can imagine. So no I’m not okay.” But I put up a front, because it’s what you expect.

By now I imagine, at least one of you is going “Why don’t you just find another job?” Well, here’s the truth: I’m tired. I’m 23 years old and tired. That must sound absolutely ridiculous. Right? Well it’s true.

Since 6 months before I graduated I’ve been constantly on job searches. After I graduated I spent 6 months searching only to get a contracting position that lasted 7 months. And within those 7 months, every month was uncertain if I’d be continuing. Once that I ended, I started on something else for 2 weeks before tragedy striked ( I lost my brother). I then quit that job, and moved back home. I did nothing for 2 months while I grieved and figured out my life. Then for about 2 months I did a lot of temporary things. And I stumbled upon what I’ve now been doing for 5 months. But I still am doing some job searching. So I got comfortable. But the past 2 years have been constant job searches with many, many fails. And I’m tired and miserable. I’ve been trying to figure out what I even want to do, because that is still uncertain to me. Sometimes I just hope I get some sort of sign of what I’m supposed to do. I’m not saying hand me a job on a silver platter, but at least an indication of what direction I’m supposed to head, would be nice.

So after that rant, I want to tell you all I’m not entirely miserable. We’re moving to our own house and that’s awesome. (Even if I am still living at home I am honestly trying to find happiness within it.) I am planning trips and enjoying the little things in life. So I’m not depressed, just tired of life a little bit. I know that I should be happy and thankful for my life. But today I’m just a little tired.

Thanks for listening internet!
Much love always! :)