Why me? Why NOT me?

Okay so I have a new rant to post about. Coming into work today I was so chipper and happy.  Last night I had a very long conversation, as you do before bed, and let’s just say I really persuaded myself of something. Does it involve a celebrity crush? yes. Does it involve me convincing myself that he’s perfect for me? I think we all know where this is going. So you see this morning I came in all smiles. Life is grand.

But then I decided to hit up youtube and watch  some tour diaries. And then it hit me. This wall of sadness and insecurities just hit me like a ton of bricks. So for any normal person, having a celeb crush is fun but meaningless. No one really truly feels emotionally invested. For fangirls, we feel everything. Every excitement and sadness they feel. It’s ridiculous but honestly it’s out of our control. Trust me I know I’ve tried. But here’s the crazy part in all this  watching those videos I got insecure. It’s like I know they have TONS of fans, and I know they see girls who have crushes on them every day. I knew all this, but seeing all these girls go up to them and stuff thats when it becomes true. So then you start thinking to yourself, why? Why would he ever pick me? Why would he love you as opposed to those other thousands of girls throwing themselves at them? What makes you different and special? And the answer to that is EVERYTHING.

You see as a girl we instinctually are the hardest person on ourselves. Trust us, no one is meaner to us than ourselves. It’s ridiculous. I like to think of myself as a pretty confident and self-secured woman. But what is it that when it comes to celebrities, who are humans too, we are just downright awful to ourselves. I should be telling myself “Why WOULDN’T he go for me?” 

It’s just all so confusing and frustrating it’s hard to put it into words. Because you know what as ridiculous as it sounds, I’m going to tell you anyways. Okay, make a list of all the qualities you’d like in your ideal man. I mean anything, go crazy. Okay have that list? Good, so do I. Now imagine all of a sudden one day you stumble upon that ideal man, except he happens to be a celebrity. (Just go with me here.) Crazy? Right? I know, because I’ve always been SO good at detaching myself from actually believing I’d ever have a chance with a celeb. I know the chances are ridiculously small and I don’t want to get hurt. So why put yourself in that position. But this time it’s different (and I should definitely not be writing this on a public blog, but oh well). Like this time I actually believe this could happen. Am I crazy? Absolutely. 

But basically the point of this post is simply to ask, why are we so hard on ourselves? And why is it that when it comes to celebrity crushes, we are even worse on ourselves? Is it our way of protecting ourselves? Or do we truly believe we have absolutely no chance?
If anyone knows the answers, PLEASE do let me know. 

That is all for me today , I know it was kind of a weird post. I apologize, but tomorrow will be back to normal. :)  

Hope you all are having a better day than myself (although I do feel better after that post, because I’m AWESOME!) 

Yes Vicky keep telling yourself that.

xx 

 

Hey Guys,So Super Special you guys get 2

Hey Guys,

So Super Special you guys get 2 posts today. 
Well for most of the day I’ve been in this super duper excited mood and just so happy. You know enjoying the sunny warm weather (which has caused me to tan from sitting outside during lunch) and just fangirling over my latest celeb crush (we all do it). And then sometimes reality likes to really suck the life out of the party and smack you across the face. 
So here’s my situation: I currently do have a job. But it is a temporary contractor position that may or may not get extended at the end of June. I can’t begin to tell you how frustating it is for me to not know what is going to happen in a month and a half. Granted that has allowed me to live my life for the now instead of worrying about the future. BUT then reality reminds me that in a month and a half you might not have a job and will still have to pay bills and rent. The good thing is, it’s not the end of the world for me, because worst case scenario my amazing grandma can give me a hand. But I like being independent and spending my own money that I make. Not to mention I have several small trips and one big trip in August to pay for. 
And then I have recently discovered that potentially what i could be good at and love doing is being a Tour Manager. It involves event planning, traveling, music, and a non-formal changing environment. It could be something really fun and could potentially be a passion of mine. (I mean I am going to 9 different concerts in different cities for the summer, so itll kind of be like being on tour) 
But of course like everything I choose in life, it’s incredibly difficult to get into. And after extensive conversations with my parents they keep telling me at least for right now I should get a job just to have a job to pay my rent. But here’s my issue, I don’t want to do something just to have something. I hate working for something I’m not passionate about. That’s what I’ve been doing my entire life. I’ve been doing things to please other people. Or even just what I thought I wanted to do. But it’s through experience that you learn the things you enjoy doing, so it was partly for me too. I guess my first hint that I shouldn’t be in the professional business world was that networking with other professionals who work in companies was dreadful and not something I enjoyed doing. I don’t enjoy small talk, if I want to talk to you, I want it to mean something. But now that I’ve been sort of discovering my passions I’ve realized that really this whole time I thought I was doing things for myself, but I haven’t. I’ve been doing things to make others happy. So with this new found discovery of my interest of Tour Managing, comes the whole job search again.
Now I’m not sure how many of you have gone through that process but it is a miserable and dreadful time. It truly is hard to cope with and remaine calm during the whole thing. 
But as I mentioned before what I want to do now is not easy, so I have to figure out a way to get started. I’ve posted today asking people for advice, and hopefully that will give me guidance. 
But in the mean time I do need to find a job that is going to pay the bills to say the least. But the problem is how do you search for that when absolutely nothing excites you except that dream of being on tour with bands organizing their trips and appearances. Ugh… the frustration of it all is too much. 
Well this rant all started because as I began searching for jobs I realized how drastically my  mood switched. i was giddy and jumping around so happy until I started searching for jobs and then I got so sad and just like ugh I don’t even want to try. 
I know this wasn’t helpful. But I just needed to get it out of my chest.

thanks for listening,

xx

Concerts, concerts and oh yeah more concerts!

Hello Lovelies,

It has been a while and for that I apologize. It has been crazy busy here for the past two weeks. I’ve been so busy I’ve barely had time to even breath. (Just kidding I actually took deep long breaths to keep from going crazy!) But I have one thing in mind keeping me from going crazy and that is all the awesome concerts that await me this summer! Yay!! :) Just so you have an idea this is what my summer schedule is looking like:

June 7- Good Morning America Emblem3 and Little Mix in NYC (also spending the weekend there! woo) – 23 Days
June 15- Pepsi Summer Bash (Ne-Yo, Avril Lavigne, Timeflies, Demi Lovato, Emblem3, Ariana Grande, Zedd, Cher Lloyd, Macklemore, Afrojack) – 31 Days
June 16- One Direction in Louiseville – 32 Days
July 7- WZPL Birthday Bash in Indianapolis (Emblem3, Ed Sheeran, Cher Lloyd) – 53 Days
July 13- One Direction – 59 Days
July 20- Warped Tour (Allstar Weekend, The Summer Set) – 66 Days
July 21- Warped Tour in Minneapolis (Allstar Weekend, The Summer Set) – 67 Days 
August 04- One Direction in Chula Vista, CA (will also be in LA for VIDCON!) – 81 Days 
August 10- Big Time Rush in Minneapolis – 87 Days 

Woah that is a lot of concerts. Dear God after the summer is over I’m going to be incredibly miserable, won’t it? I’ll be suffering from PCD (post concert depression) from 9 Concerts!! Ahhhhh! But regardless I am going to have the best summer of my life. I will also be going broke but w.e it’ll be amazing!! :) I’m so excited for every single concert! And I have at least one person to go with for every single concert! It’ll be unforgettable memories I’ll be sharing with some of my best friends! Sorry that is all I wanted to post a countdown for all my concerts! :)  

That is all for me,

xx

A Note to all Fangirls

Dear Fangirls,

So a few minutes ago I saw something that truly pissed me off, and I decided I needed to write about it. Because we write best when we’re pissed off right?? So this post is going to be mostly directed at Directioners, but in all honesty it applies to any fandom you’re a part of. 

So as you all know, I’m a pretty big Directioner. I’ve done the whole going around an entire city (NYC) to find them, I’ve stayed outside their hotel, I’ve gone to two concerts already and will be attending 3 more this year. I truly love those five idiots (we often call them that as a term of endearment). And most of the time, I really like our fandom too. I mean I’ve made some pretty great friends just by being in the fandom. But other times I truly HATE this fandom. Let me tell you why.

So today, here I am sitting at work, when I look on twitter. I start seeing tweets from my directioner friends saying “omg I can’t believe they did that.” “I am so disgusted with the fans right now.” “that is so not okay.” And I’m thinking what the hell just happened, that is making everyone lash out on Twitter. (If you don’t live under a rock, you’d know any news you need to find out about, you can go to Twitter for that. News travels REALLY fast on there.) So as I’m searching through I discover what everyone was talking about. 

Harry Styles was leaving his hotel in Paris, and the scene was dispicable. The video shows Harry trying to leave, and basically a sea of girls closing in around him and trying to get to him. I mean the security guards are all surrounding him and he’s ducked down to avoid being grabbed or hurt. He removes his beanie and holds his things in his hand tightly. The car door then slowly opens and he gets in rather slowly. All of this happened while girls are screaming and reaching out and trying to take pictures. It is one of the most appalling things I have ever seen. Did you all forget he’s a feaking human being? He is not a toy or a doll you can just grab and toss around. 

As a fangirl, I can understand it is exciting to see your idol. The man of you dream of. I get that.I can understand it is hard to control your emotions, especialy when you are an emotional tween. I get all that, but this is a whole new level of craziness. When i was outside the boys’ hoel in New York City, something similar happened. Niall got in a cab, and in a matter of seconds the cab was swarmed all around. I had never seen anything like it. Some girls got their foot run over by the cab and others got pushed to the ground. And the worst part about it is that poor Niall is claustrophobic. Now imagine you have a fear of small enclosed spaces, now imagine being in one. And then imagine about 100 girls surrounding that small space, banging on the windows, and yelling. Yeah, I’m pretty sure you wouldn’t be too happy about that. And the worst part is people got a picture of Niall frowning and pissed off, and yet fangirls who say they truly care for him still do this to the him and the other boys. In NYC I stood back in horror as I saw this, because I realized that was complete invasion of privacy and just down right rude. I’m a big fan but I would NEVER disrespect someone like that. Even if it was my ultimate dream to meet them, I just wouldn’t want to meet them in that circumstance. Can you just imagine ” Hey Niall, I love you so much! I’m totally invading your privacy and smashing my face against this window so you’ll notice me. I love you!” Yeah, of course, he’ll fall madly in love with you at first sight and you two will get married. Sorry to break it to you, but if anything this is how he’ll remember you “there was a psychotic girl pushing her face on my cab window. It was really freaky and a complete turn off. She clearly doesn’t know me or respect me.” That’s the truth. 

Now 5 months later the same thing happens, except instead of having the protection of a car Harry was being pushed in every which direction. I personally know, if I was in his spot I would’ve been so pissed off. I would then probably resent the Parisian fans and really never want to come back if this is what I had to deal with. But no he’s a complete gentleman and says nothing. Like do you girls forget he’s a human being, with emotions and needs. Everyone needs personal space and respect. As a child there is one rule everyone learns, keep your hands to yourself and respect each other. That’s basic life rules. So why does this go out the window as soon as you see a celebrity?

Now there are the people who say, well he’s a celebrity he shouldn’t complain. And you know what I say to you: you see that door behind you, open it, take a step forward and LEAVE. Yes they are a celebrity, and yes they are in the limelight, but NO ONE should have to deal with this. Even if you are the most famous person in the world. You are still a person who deserves to be respected. 

I know I keep ranting and saying the same things, but it’s just I am honestly just so angry. These “fangirls” truly ruin it for the rest of us. Because of your actions Parisian fans (and I recognize not ALL of you are like this, so I’m sorry if I’m upsetting or offending you, but maybe you should talk to those other girls and tell them to calm down), the boys will be a lot more reluctant to come to your country. And it’s only right if this is how you are going to treat them. And not only that, but now their management and security automatically assume all of us fan girls are the same and will basically harrass all the boys. THAT IS NOT TRUE! We will not treat them like the last toy in a Black Friday sale. That is ridiculous and some of us have some dignity and respect for them. 

What it basically boils down to is this: no matter how much of a fan you are, no matter the extent you will go for these boys, and no matter how right you think you are to do this: no one deserves to be engulfed in a sea of girls who if they could would basically rip them apart just to have a little piece of them. 

Parisian fans I am warning you in the words of the lovely Jenna Marbles; Pipe the eff down. Last time Liam lost a shoe, this time Harry was engulfed in a sea of girls. I swear if you don’t stop this madness, the next thing will be one of the boys will get hurt. Do you want that? Do you? Cause I can guarantee if that happens the rest of the world will truly HATE you. And no one wants to be hated. 

So I think my rant is over. But I leave you with this, PLEASE respect them. They are human beings like you and I, who need room to breathe . Just because they are you idol or the love of your life, you don’t want to literally smother them. Please just back off. I promise you if you act more civilized and more calm they will be 10x more likely to come take pictures and  autographs. But if you continue this, then we will start not even seeing them out and about anymore. They’ll be too terrified. Let’s prove to these boys that we truly do love and respect them. 

Much love,

A fellow fan girl 

PS- If you are a fangirl and you read this and thought I was wrong in what I said, and that you do have a right to harrass them and act like those girls did. Do us all a favor, and leave this fandom immediately. 

Imagine…Keeping it Real

Hello Everyone,

Okay, so today I was walking back to my desk from buying lunch when a realization came to me. And as I was texting my friend about it, I decided to just put it on here, so I could elaborate more and share with all of you. Disclaimer: anything I say in here is not meant to make anyone feel down or downgrade anyone’s jobs or passions, AT ALL. I am simply stating my opinion on my feelings right now. If I offend you I apologize profusely.

Most people when they are young, have great dreams for themselves. You know as a kid you really think you’re invincible and that you can do absolutely anything you’d like. As you grow a bit older, you start actually imagining what your life could be like. For most people, that entails having a job they like, getting married, and having kids. The whole white picket fence story. And for most of us that is more than enough.

When I was young, if you asked me what I wanted to be I would tell you two things: supermodel and working mom. The idea of being a stay at home mom never enthused me even as a lazy child. I wanted to do something with my life. I wanted to have a fun exciting life. And of course at that time when people tell you, you’re so skinny and tall for your age, naturally you think Model. Duh.

As I grew up, my mentality from a kid changed drastically. I realized being a model was overrated and out of reach. I wanted the 9-5 job everyday.  The going to work and coming home to my husband and kids. A safe steady job that allowed me to make my own money (I’ve always been extremely independent, unless I’m sick then that’s a different story) and spend time with my kids.That was what I wanted for myself. And I was happy with that. Those were my middle school and high school years.

When i got to college, it’s almost like I gained my childhood mentality back. I was served this whole big world on a plate and I could do whatever I wanted. Even though I knew exactly the major I was going to get since freshman year, I also knew my major was flexible and I could do absolutely ANYTHING with it. Really, I can.

But that’s when things really changed for me. Here I was faced with this whole big world, where I could live anywhere, do anything, and have anything. You can imagine things slowly started getting to me. When it came time to do the job hunt, I never felt like anything was good enough. Nothing felt big enough, if you will.

Now, I may sound a bit vain and ridiculous for saying the next few things, but I’m going to share it anyways. One thing though has always been in the back of my mind. Something inside me has always told me that I was going to be big, in some form. Like the idea of being famous, excites me. The idea of people looking up to me for guidance and as a role model, is secretly something I’ve always wanted. I wanted the big glamorous life that people would be jealous of. Now that is not to say I would be a selfish spoiled person. Something close to my heart has always been charity and working at charities, so naturally even if I was rich or poor that would still be something I would invest time and money into. Now I realize a lot of people say, material things don’t make you happy. Or money isn’t everything. I am NOT saying it is. I am saying I want the lifestyle and admiration of others. (i am not saying by any means that I’m perfect either, trust me I AM NOT PERFECT) I guess you can say, I live to please.

But day in and day out I look at the guys that work in my building and I just feel sad. Now I’m sure most of them are absolutely lovely people, who make great boyfriends/husbands/fathers. I am not saying anything bad about them at all. Maybe I feel this way because I haven’t had a decent boyfriend in quite some time & I’m sure not all celebs are great guys either, but again I feel like this is not the life I’m destined to live. You know the corporate working woman, is just not something that makes me happy.

I guess the best way I can explain this is, I’d like the Emma Watson life. She works very very hard for the recognition she has and she doesn’t take it for granted. She is humble and sweet. That is what I want. I want to be recognized for my hard work.

Most of you at this point are either shaking your heads in disbelief, offended, or hopefully understanding where I’m going with this. I hope you don’t think of me as vain and ridiculous. But for some reason it’s just something inside me that tells me that I need to live this big grand life to be happy (not that I’m not happy right now, I am, i just see bigger better things for myself). I want to go on adventures, travel around the world, and not going to lie have a famous handsome husband would not bea bad thing. Maybe that explains all my obsessions with musicians and actors. I latch on emotionally. Now, I would never ever just date someone because their famous. Let’s get that straight. I do have a heart and am a hopeless romantic, so if I ever date someone it is truly because I like them, NOT FOR FAME. As I mentioned earlier I am an independent person who likes to win her own merits.

So I guess, for now I am just going to keep working at finding what I’m meant to be doing with my life. And if in that I somehow find a little fame, well then I guess my dreams as a little girl will be fulfilled. :)

I was terrified to post this, because like most people I care what people think of me. But most importantly I don’t want anyone getting the wrong idea about me or saying “ugh that girl just wants to be famous for all the wrong reasons.” I don’t know. I just care how others view me and I’m always incredibly careful to make sure I do give out the right idea.

Much love,

xx

PS- I sort of just rambled and I’m sorry but it’s something that has been on my mind. Especially now that I’ve restarted the job hunt and have NO clue what to do with my life.

Why Is This Still Not Resolved?

Hello Everyone,

So today I was walking to the train station and I look over to the stand where I pick up my Red Eye Newspaper and I see a familiar cover. It’s the LGBT flag all over the cover. Why is this still a discussion? Now, don’t get me wrong, I’m not frustrated because I’m against it, quite the opposite, I’m frustrated because I’m for it. I just can’t wrap my head around why you could be against it. I just can’t. What is so difficult about people accepting two people who love each other to get married. Isn’t that what marriage is supposed to be? Two people who love each other making a commitment to each other. Does it matter if it’s a man and a woman, man and man, or woman and woman. No it shouldn’t. Also I’m not sure how that affects your life.

Furthermore, Gays are some of the best people I’ve ever met. I mean that in the sense that not only are they amazing friends, they are kind, strong people. I mean think about it, they have to deal with all this prejudice society throws at them, they have to be strong. And they are some of the most positive and happy people I know. They are just like you and me, they just want to be with the person they love. Yet, we are keeping them all from it. Not really fair is it? I mean, think about when you read or watched Romeo & Juliet. Did you get angry when they couldn’t be together because of their family issues? This is very similar. They want to be together, but because of laws & society they can’t. That should enrage you as much as it did with Romeo & Juliet. It sure as heck makes me mad. 

Also in the article they go over a few topics and how gay marriage affects them. Of course, it wouldn’t be complete without the subject of children. Now I will admit to this, I don’t know anyone that comes from gay parents, so my view would be based off the gays I do know and how I know they would make amazing parents. The article mentions that adopted kids usually end up as troubled kids, but apparently more so if they come from gay parents. Okay, this makes me very very angry. You know why these kids end up like that, I can guarantee you very little of it has to do with the parents that lovingly adopted them. Isn’t it a general thing that being abandoned by your real parents messes with your head? So wouldn’t that be the real problem. Or let’s talk about the bullying these kids would get. Yes because then the other afflictions he would have would be from the other people that prejudice against their parents. I mean so then shouldn’t we be trying to end the prejudice and not the right for them to get married? Because really, let’s be honest, the problem is society’s prejudiced view on gay parents that is really affecting them. Also please explain to me how does being adopted by gay parents differ than being adopted by a heterosexual couple? They are both sets of parents that lovingly adopted a kid to raise as their own. Oh right, there is no difference except you get one more dad or one more mom. Also I don’t see people comparing the number of divorces heterosexual parents have and how that affects their children. Or how kids who grow up in bad neighborhoods or to an unsafe, unhappy environment sometimes don’t turn out so great. Yet they have heterosexual parents, so it’s okay. No one is perfect, but you have no right to decide who gets to do what with their life. 

So, I mean, people its 2013, shouldn’t we be past all this? Shouldn’t we just love everyone the way they are? Shouldn’t we just let people marry who they want? Who are we to make an opinion on someone else’s love life. I mean even with our own friends we don’t exactly know how their relationships go, so how the heck are we entitled to pass judgement on people we don’t eve know.

Having gay friends, I only wish them the same happiness I am allowed. That is all. I can understand older people having a harder time to adjust to it because it’s not what they grew up with. But I am always in complete shock when I hear of young people so opposed to it. Are you allowed to have your own opinions? Sure you are, as long as you don’t impose those on others. 

What did make me happy was to read how the numbers are increasing, and how very soon we will be allowing anyone to get married to who they want. Yes, I did not say ‘if’ because I know humanity will prevail and we will stop being the close-minded people stopping people from being happy.

So, I just wanted to share with you all my frustration as I read this article. It’s just about time that we are all happy. 

Much love always,

xx

I’m Straight but not Narrow 

What Is Wrong With The World?

Hey Guys,

So today is not going to be your typical happy go-lucky post about how fantastic my weekend was (which it was) or how amazing it was to see my friend that I hadn’t seen in almost 2 years now.  No this post is going to talk about something I just experienced. 

About only an hour ago, I had one of the most surreal experiences. And not in a good way. I was sitting at my desk just doing my work, as usual. When my phone lights up from a text. Normal. I look at it and it’s a tweet from one of the youtubers I watch: “@Tyleroakley: sick to my stomach after seeing what happened today at the Boston Marathon. No words will suffice, but my thoughts are with you.” My brain: “boston. Boston. BOSTON! My family lives in Boston, what the hell happened in Boston??” I quickly search up the internet to find out what the hell happened. 2 Bombs exploded near Copley Square. (A place I know only because my family goes there so often.) “No, no no. Please tell me they’re okay.” is what my brain was yelling at me. I immediately text my mom, dad and sister. (My brother is often at home or with my mom.) Dad says he’s fine, and my sister responds saying she’s at her best friend’s house. I then call my mom since I had not gotten any response. She was also fine, thank god. Then my sister texts me letting me know an hour before it all happened, she was at Copley Square. SHE WAS AT COPLEY SQUARE. My 15 year old sister, was at the same place the bomb exploded an hour before it happened. I cannot begin to tell you all the emotions that emerged from inside of me. Thank God, she was okay and unharmed and long gone by the time it happened. I have not let my mind wander as to what if she had been there, because as an older sister that is way too much for me to handle. 

But the point of the story is, the world is becoming a much scarier place. No place is ever safe. No city, no event, no building is safe from possibly having an attack. I mean this was a marathon. And it got attacked. What’s next an ice cream store? I mean it is getting so scary to the point that, people now instead of enjoying life, live life in fear. 
I apologize for the very downer post, but I did need to let out somehow this plethora of emotions inside of me. 

Thank you for listening.

Much love and stay safe,

xx

Hold The Phones!

Hello Everyon!!! :)  

So while at TVD Con I learned about a little something called EyeCon which happens in Atlanta. But the catch is, it’s a lot more intimate, for example you get to have dinner for an hour with the celebs. Like what????? Crazy! And today I registered to be a part of a focus group that in the end will pay me $500 (no I am not selling my body, but in case you are interested I have seen sooo many ads to donate your eggs for $7,000, who knew I was so full of cash money!). So with that I decided I could go ahead and afford the Platinum Ticket which would give me so many privaleges. And take a wild guess who’s already confirmed as a guest at EyeCon. If you guessed Mr. Nathaniel Buzolic, you would 100% correct. Ian Somerhalder is also confirmed but funny enough I am more excited for Nate. 

It’ll be like TVD Con all over again but better! And I’m talking to my girls who I met to go too. It will be a grand old party! And its taking place 2 days after my 23rd birthday! So I think we all know what I’m asking for my birthday. ( If you thought Nate, that was my first thought too.) But I’ll be asking the parents for cash money! 

But yes, I needed to share with you all because I seriously feel like exploding with excitement. It really is a problem how intensely I feel things. Like I feel extreme happiness, extreme sadness, extreme excitement. Is this healthy? I guess I just like to really feel every emotion I have. Imagine if I were a vampire, it would be even worse for me.  But I am thrilled to even be considering going down to Atlanta to see my girls and celebrate EyeCon!! :) It will be an awesome birthday. The events actually starts Thursday (10/31) with a movie where Nate will be at. So maybe Mystic Falls will be the place for things to happen. ;)  

I’ll keep you all posted on my adventures but so far VidCon in August with my biffle F and then Atlanta for EyeCon in November with my vampire girlies. Seriously, 2013 has been THE best year of my life. I am so thankful I am able to do all this and that my life is amazing. I truly am blessed!

Much love,

xx

“OMG! They’re so TINY!”

Hello All,

Okay so I know I said I was posting yesterday but I couldn’t. I’m sorry! My boss is gone for the week so I’ve had a lot of work this week! Plus I’m trying to make up hours since I will be taking off Friday for a friend coming to town! Woo! Anyways, here is the long awaited day 2 of The Vampire Diaries Convention.

First though, I’d like to add a few memorable quotes from Nathaniel during his panel.

“Kol really needs some friends. He’s such a loner.”
“Yesterday I was on the plane flying here and I noticed I wasn’t too different from Kol. I was sitting ALONE on the plane reading.”
“Yes, Jeremy. Yes, Jeremy. I know you have a sister Jeremy.” (when someone mentioned he had Jeremy as a friend for a bit) 
“My definition of bravery is when you know both outcomes and you still choose to go ahead with it. And I think we’re all very brave here, and we live everyday in bravery.”
“Life’s about the journey not the destination.”

So I had previously met Rachel on twitter as she responded to my desperate tweet trying to make a friend. She told me she’d be going on Sunday, so I suggested we go together! I get ready very tiredly for the day ahead. And then it hits me: “OMG TODAY I AM MEETING PAUL AND IAN!” I am beyond ecstatic. (If you recall from the previous post, my lovely friend Caroline offered to let me be in her photo for getting her autographs for her.) I pick up Rachel, and again Dunkin gives me my caffeine kick.

The Sunday crowd was very different. There were tons of new people that hadn’t been there Saturday (boy they dont know what they missed) and there were just a lot more people. And the girls today were a lot more dressed up. The day starts off a bit slow as we just chill for a bit since there is nothing major until later. After enjoying my breakfast and talking with Rachel for a bit we head down to the photo op. (Just remembering it, my stomach is in knots.) I meet up with Caroline and the line is HUGE. We sit down waiting for it to start and we just talk for a bit. The line finally begins moving and I’m keeping it cool. Rachel leaves to get in line for her Ian photo op.

Once we reach the room and are in it, I can’t believe it. I am seeing Paul and Ian with my own two eyes, live. I, of course, begin jumping up and down because I am so excited. Caroline just laughs at me because I am fangirling hard. But funny enough the first thing I say about them is; “OMG! They’re so tiny!” I am not kidding when I say that Paul and Ian have the same waist size as me or smaller. Like those two are so slim it was ridiculous. Of course, Paul keeps posing the same in every picture: head forward, lips kind of pouting, and a brooding look (typical stefan). Also they are not that tall, they are maybe 3 inches taller than me at most (I’m 5’7″ and a half- its a very important half). But regardless I am still fangirling with excitement. Most of the girls in line that were taking pictures in pairs would have one girl in the middle and the other hugging Ian. But I told Caroline “Not uh! I’m standing by my man Stefan!” (Yes most of the weekend I kept switching all the names from their real names to the character names. It happened more often than I’d like to admit to.) And when I say most I mean like out of everyone I got see take a picture (about 10-12), I was the only one who posed with Paul.

So before I know it’s our turn. Somehow, I was in front of Caroline, so I quickly walk over and I just point to Paul, to let him, Ian and the photographer know I was going to that side. (I have no idea why I did this…I just did.) As soon as I reached Paul I put my arm around him and then he started talking. I froze. 
“Hey There.” Paul says (Okay now imagine his face is facing me, I’m looking forward, hearing Stefan’s voice in my ear. The sweet velvety deep Stefan voice. Dear god, it was a lot to handle.) 
My mentality was I did not want to ruin the photo right? So when he said this I was looking forward. But I reply. 
“HI!” And then I can tell he’s still kind of facing me and keeps talking,
“How are you?” Mind you I’m facing forward smiling already.
So, I say through my teeth “I”m great, how are you?” 
He is now facing forward too and replies through his teeth
“I’m good.” 
We smile pose and the photographer takes the picture.
After that I give him a hug and say “Thank you so much!” and he replies with “You’re very welcome.” And then before I leave I look back and look at Ian and wave “Thank you so much!” And he waves back “Your welcome” with that beautiful Damon smile. Now let me tell you his eyes are the most gorgeous thing I’ve ever seen. They are piercing clear water blue, so beautiful. After we left Caroline tells me that Ian said to her “I’m hungry. Can I bite you?” to which she responded “absolutely.” (it was all her brain allowed her to say since she was also internally fan girling. ) I mean who wouldn’t Ian Freaking Somerhalder just said he wanted to bite you) 

Now let me explain something. As soon as Paul began talking I completely froze. It felt so unreal and crazy to me that I was touching and talking to Paul Wesley, who plays my favorite character on my favorite TV Show. I mean it’s surreal. I’ve been in love with him for 4 years! So naturally when I think back to it, I kick myself a bit because I could have looked at him when he talked to me. But I was so afraid because I had seen pictures of girls blinking in the pictures and I did not want to ruin Caroline’s picture. She was doing me a favor and I didnt want to mess it up. This was the result: 

ImageYes, there unfortunately is a gap between me and Paul, becuase like I said I froze and didn’t realize I was standing so far. 

After that Arielle Kebble (Lexi) and Charlie (again) took the stage! They were hillarious! Arielle is a really fun and funny chick that I’d love to be besties with. They answered questions and had a blast doing so. At the end they even reenacted the Dirty Dance move and then Charlie put Arielle over his shoulder. I mean the two were great, and I really enjoyed watching them. Also a common theme from this panel was how badly Charlie wanted to be in a boy band. When he came out he was dancing a little and then he was telling a story of how for one of the scenes in Twilight he had to throw someone against the wall and when he that his opposite leg went up too. (Making it look like a boy band move, think N’Sync.) And so we all laughed and just had a good time. (Also forgot to mention Charlie re-enacted his stunt from the previous day where he had the lights turned off and pretending he was responsible for the lights turning on. He would slowly lift his arms in a hillarious stance- it looked like he was pooping actually- and did that again referring to yesterday)

After they were done it was now time for Torrey DeVitto (Dr. Meredith Fell). Fun fact to you all, if you don’t know she’s married to Paul in real life. (WHAT? I had no idea before someone told me as she was getting on stage.) She cut her hair! Was the first thing I noticed. But as always she looked so cute. I didn’t know much about her, but apparently she was on One Tree Hill and is now in 2 other shows. (That girl keeps very very busy) But she was very sweet and I enjoyed watching her as well. Arielle jokingly also grabbed the mic and had a question for her asking what was Paul’s beauty routine. And she joked she had to help him with his hair because it was a whole process, then she had to give him a facial, and she also had to help him put in the fangs. We all laughed because it was pretty funny how serous she was saying all these things. I can definitely see why her and Paul are married because they are just the cutest things ever. (Apparently when Paul was doing autographs, she joined him and was like “Hi Honey, what are you doing?” to which Paul replies “Thinking of you honey.” Okay permission to melt. Isn’t that just so freaking adorable!! I mean they’ve been married for 2 years now, but they are clearly still in the honeymoon phase. I love it!) So hers kind flew by as well and before we knew it, we had 10 minutes before Ian and Paul were taking the stage.

After a lot of anxiety building up, they take over the stage. Now I was sitting at the very back, last row so that we could sit higher up or stand to see them better. (I will tell you this the next day my legs were so sore from all the kneeling up and down and sitting on my legs, but it was so worth it.) I can sum up what was discussed in the panel with one sentence: We were all picking on Ian. A lot happened in that hour. There were obviously lots of girls screaming “I love you.” They started by answering which scene was the funnest to film with the shower scene we did together that got cut. So they started the show with jokes of them being gay together. Brilliant. Throughout the whole thing some people screamed questions. Including one guy who screamed out “Where’s Nina?” And Ian explained she was filiming something else. To which someone replied with something (i have no idea what is was since they were in front and I was at the back.) to which all Ian heard was “Whore.” And he looked angry and confused. And of course Paul being the great guy he is just went “Awww Shitttt.” (like you know the high pitched voice, yeah like that) And we all “oooooohed” I mean you going to diss Ian’s girl like that. But that wasn’t the case it was just a misunderstanding. But another very memorable scene was Ian explaining how a fan in an airport sneaked a pair of underwear into his back pocket. Paul was very confused as the underwear did not consist of a phone number or name, so what was the point. To which Ian responded that he would send a smoke signal and she would come running up. He then proceeded to try to show Paul how this happened and Paul simply replied “Ian, get away from my ass.” Later in the show a girl got up to ask a question and added at the end “By the way, Ian I want my underwear back.” (Was it actually her who did it, I have no idea. But this lady is a legend for having the balls to stand up and say that.) The boys cracked up and so did the audience. It was all great fun and a memorable experience that I wish we could have recorded. (if anyone did, LET ME KNOW!) The hour finished much too soon. 

And then it was over, just like that. The convention only had an auction, and the autographs and photo op lefts. But since I hadn’t purchased the phot op or the autographs, I was done for the day. And all of a sudden it hit me, and I felt empty. Like you know when you are enjoying something so much and someone slaps you in the face and you get upset. That’s how it felt. I didn’t want the weekend to end. I didn’t want to come back to reality where I go to an office every day and work. I wanted to sit there enjoying myself watch celebrities I love talk. Have a good conversation with someone about my favorite show. I wasn’t ready for the day to be over. And so Rachel and I decide that it would be a good idea to go to the airport to go find them. But Caroline had to leave and I picked up our photo. I also needed to purchase the JPEGs of our images. So by the time we did all that, they were long gone and we imagined already through security. It’s alright we know better now for next time. 

So if you read everything on this post and the last, congratulations because you did some serious reading! I know these were long but I wanted to write every detail I remembered so that I have this as a way of looking back and remembering the amazing time I had. Also, it might make it easier for those who didn’t go to get a glimpse of what it’s like to go to one, and who knows maybe next year I’ll see you there! :)  

Hope you all enjoyed it and will see you soon! :)  

Much love,

xx

PS- I will definitely be back next year! 

 

Fangs, Blood, and Weak Knees

Hello Hello,

Let’s skip the formalities and go straight to this new post that is maybe a few weeks overdue. (And not because the information is old but becuase I suck at updating. Well excuse me if I actually have a lot of work.)

So if you’re thinking this post has something to do with me not feeling well due to the title, you are mistaken. This past weekend I had one of the most amazing experiences of my life. And I thought I’d share it with all of you in great detail. If you are not a fan I apologize, but in a way I am doing this more for myself so I can have this amazing expereince documented somewhere. This past weekend I went to The Vampire Diaries Convention. I had learned about this only a few weeks ago, and as soon as I read about it, I knew i HAD to go. The one thing I was a bit hesitant about was the simple fact that, I was going alone. Ever since my trip to NYC and exploring the city alone, I’ve been less afraid to go places alone. But this wasn’t a matter of being scared, it was a matter of wanting to share this experience with someone, have someone to be excited with you. But regardless just because I was alone, I wasn’t going to let this keep me down. I knew I had to make this experience AH-MAZING!

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So Friday, they opened up registration. I thought that even though I was General Admission I still had to go in and exchange my regular tickets for their tickets. So I drive out to the hotel (which was near the airport) at about 9pm. When i get there and wait in line I learn that I in fact did not need to do this. But it was okay because I had also been wanting to purchase a Meet & Greet that they had announced they still had some available for Paul Wesley (aka Stefan Salvatore on the show). These were going for $200 but I had reasoned with myself it would be worth it. I also needed to purchase a ticket to the dance, but had been told previously they were sold out. Once I was told I did not need to exchange my tickets, but i would check in tomorrow, I asked about the Meet & Greet. So to my luck/lack of luck the tickets were sold out. (Which in retrospect I’m glad I didn’t add another $200 to my credit card bill.) But I did get an urge to buy picture tickets. And the funny thing was looking at the list of actors 2 stood out to me, Stephen McQueen (Jeremy Gilbert) and Nathaniel Buzolic (Kol Mikaelson). Not going to lie, I was mostly appealed because they are incredibly sexy, close to my age (Stephen is 24 and Nathaniel is 29), and because they are not married (aka I still have a shot). So I go ahead and buy the tickets ($50 for Stephen  and $40 for Nathaniel) and as I’m paying I ask about Dance tickets and to my luck they had some available. So of course I had to buy one. So after all that it was about 10:15pm and I was tired and headed home (it was a 30 minute drive, not counting the amount of time I got lost.) Somehow by simply asking the kind man at the hotel valet desk, I got free parking. (HECK YES! Parking was $10 for TVD [The Vampire Diaries] Convention attendees) After heading home I began beautifying myself for the next day. I decided it was a good idea to try and sleep in with rollers in my hair to get some nice big waves going.

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Next morning I wake up after a very poorly slept 5 hours. I had also put in mousse so I think you can imagine what my hair looked like. If you can’t here’s a picture for visual effects:

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So after getting ready to go I head out to the convention. I of course needed my caffeine to be fully awake, so Dunkin did the trick. Once arriving there the word excitement can’t even begin to describe what I was feeling. You saw a lot of faces smiling from ear to ear and a lot of heels. Girls really dress up for the occasion, i mean like dresses, heels make up the whole thing. I was proudly wearing my Vampire Diaries t-shirt I got in high school (yes it still fit me, P you know the one). I had a smile going from ear to ear myself. A bit intimidated I walk into the auditorium after I registered and just stared at the big room for a second.

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I found an aisle seat down the middle to be able to photograph the event. (I will not be posting the actual pictures I took with my camera here, but they will be in my video so you guys can check it out there (youtube.com/tvvickyd) it will be up later today after I get home and edit). Not soon enough the lights begin to dim and the show starts. First the Hillywood Show girls come on stage. They are a youtube channel that makes parodies using music videos mostly, and they’re really good. One of the girls was dressed as Katherine and the other as Caroline. It was fun to watch them bring to life these characters. After showing their Vampire Diaries parody (Show Me Your Teeth, was catchy and really good) they begin the introduction. Then they show one of the winner music videos, and there it was, all my TVD emotions came rushing in. And I mean all of them; my love for Stefan, my heart wrenching sympathy for Damon, my love and longing for Jeremy, my reverence for Caroline, my confusion over Klaus, my sadness for Alaric and every other emotion this show has ever given me. It was surreal, I was gathered around at least 2,000 other people that were as big of a fan of the show as I was. I was sharing this experience with all of them and I couldn’t be happier. Then the Hillywood girls announce that Nathaniel Buzolic would now be taking the stage.

Nathaniel Buzolic (Kol Mikaelson)

My stomach immediately flled with butterflies because i mean this man is gorgeous, and he was the first of many celebrities I’d be seeing and meeting this weekend. He comes on stage and takes off his blazer. Obviously we all cheer and holler at him. Also as soon as he begins speaking you get to hear that beautiful Australian accent from Sydney that is not too strong but just right. If you’ve seen the show you would know he plays Kol, one of the original vampires who is basically pure evil. What I learned through watching Nathaniel’s panel is that, he is the complete opposite of that character, yet he plays evil so well. He begins the panel by answering questions people had previously submitted and everything is going great. He talked about how Kol was a loner and should really get some friends in the story. It was really funny. Then he decides this isn’t enough for him. He decides he wants to go into the crowd and actually get to talk to people. So he goes around and has people ask questions to him into the microphone and he’d answer them then and there. He was a bit of a goof ball too, by randomly sitting next to people and being like “hey, what’s up?” and giving you lots and lots and lots of hugs. He was incredibly humble, sweet and funny. I really really enjoyed watching him. He then told us a little about a project he works with called  End It Movement, which is all about ending modern day slavery. Which if I’m going to be perfectly honest, I wasn’t too aware this is still such a problem. After seeing how passionate he is about it and obviously it being a great cause, i am now going to get more involved with that. Then he asked us all to mark a red x on our hands and he had pins to give out. Obviously I couldn’t pass up the opportunity to join in.

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This picture is from today. I still have the X on my hand.

His session was followed by one of the most memorable moments of my weekend there. It was time for my Photo Op with him. Now imagine I had just seen this man talk for the past 40 minutes and in that time fallen in love with how beautiful of a person he really is. So now I was ecstatic that I had the chance to meet him and give him a hug. (And I was mentally giving myself a high 5 for buying the photo op with him.) Once I got into the room I attempted to prep my mindset for what was about to happen. (Just thinking about it I’m getting the butterflies all over again).He was so beautiful and perfect. When I was standing directly in front of him while still in line, he looked directly at me.and said “I Should really start doing different faces, I keep doing the same one in every picture.” To which all I could come up with is “yeah.” and a smile. It was just so sudden I was starstruck. The line then kept moving and then it was my turn. So I go up to him and say “Okay, so I’m going to change things up a bit, can you pick me up.” Okay first of all let me say, I was a complete mess internally, I was so so nervous and just trying to keep all my emotions and fan griling to a minimum. I kept my voice normal and said it with a smile. I was trying SO hard to keep it cool. And he responded by saying “You mean like pick you up in my arms.” While doing the motion with his arms. And I respond “Yeah, just pick me up in your arms.” And he was like “okay.” and offered me a smile. He then picks me up and I look at the camera and smile. I could feel the strain in his arms a little tiny bit but I wasn’t scared. I had a gorgeous man picking me up and I had my arms around his neck. That is more touching than any other fan did. I wasn’t sure the face he made until I picked up the picture. After he set me down I said thank you and gave him a hug. I then proceeded to leave the room quickly and  started prancing outside to find my bag. I was so ecstatic at what had just happened. Girls were smiling at me because I had the balls to ask Nathaniel Buzolic to pick me up. And the entire weekend I only saw one other girl being picked up (and it wasn’t by Nate).

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I then head back upstairs and find a corner so I can vlog without people staring. After vlogging I go back inside the auditorium and sit in the same seat waiting for the next appearance. After some waiting, some tweeting, and some instagramming they announce Charlie Bewley was taking on the stage.

  

Charlie Bewley as Vaughn & Demetri

Now when I had looked at the schedule before the convention I had no idea who he was. Charlie Bewley is none other than Vaughn the Vampire Hunter that tied up and tortured Damon on the island when the whole group was searching for Silas. But little did I know he was also on Twilight, as Demetri one of the Volturi. Cheeky, doesn’t even begin to describe this guy. He was very funny, and talked quite fast in his beautiful Briitsh accent (which I obviously understood due to my small British addiction), He was a goof ball, but so sweet. He was honest through and through. Much like Nathaniel, Charlie also went out into the crowd and was talking to people. His session was also a lot of fun, but strangely I was not completely fan girling over him like I was over Nathaniel.

After Charlie we had a Costume Competition which was honestly so cool. To see the amount of effort people put into their costumes was awesome. Obviously the most popular character portrayed was Katherine. There were at least 3 1800s gowns that were hand made. Now imagine those gorgeous big gowns that Katherine wears in the flashbacks, made from scratch. It was awesome. There were 2 sets of cheerleaders with hand made costumes, and 2 boys one as Tyler and one as Damon. There was also a very creative one of medieval Rebekah and her first victim (which someone dressed as an angel).

Following the costume contest there was another showing of a different winning music video. I was really enjoying these  music videos and they worked as a nice prep for the upcoming celeb. Well the next celeb to take the stage was none other than Mr. Stephen McQueen, who plays the loveable but deep Jeremy Gilbert.

Stephen McQueen as Jeremy Gilbert

I expected him to be shy but very sweet. Boy, was I in for an awakening. First off let’s talk about how much of a goof ball this one is. He kept getting distracted every 5 minutes by something someone in the audience, or by Hillywood girls rolling their eyes at him, or simply getting lost in his own train of thought. He was by far the most entertaining one to watch. He of course did not want this to be just your typical panel where he sits on stage and answers questions. With every question he brought down the person who wrote it and had them on stage. He would then start by giving them a hug, saying hi, and asking them how they were. He did mumble quite a bit, and often joked and would put the microphone up to the fan’s mouth and then pull it away as they start talking. So it was a bit difficult to hear things, since i was towards the back. But you got the general idea of what was happening. And he danced with some, he hit on some of the moms and daughters too. He was overall extremely flirty, but so hillarious. I laughed the entire time watching him. There was one girl in particular though who, as soon as her name was read she ran so fast to the stage, jumped up the stairs and basically jumped him. Her legs were around his legs and everything. It was one of the funniest sites I have ever seen! He then told her, she should really think about joining a track team. He then told her, her mom was hot, and the mom gave him a kiss on the cheek. All I’m going to say is the girl was PISSED and we could all see her face on the big screen. I laughed. A lot. But overall it was the most intimate one of them all. Even if you were sitting in the audience you could yell something out every so often and he would respond. It was great. He also mentioned him and Nate had written a song about the all the members of the cast, to which we all obviously screamed for him to sing it. We kept cheering in hopes it would happen. The organizer then announced that they would set it up to happen later so Stephen and Nate could practice it before performing it. (They never ended up doing it. :( )

That was followed by my photo op with him. Much like Nate’s I stood in line prepping for what I was about to face. Once I reached him I gave him a hug and said the same thing I said to nate. I asked  him to pick me up. He gave a little look behind me to check if he would be getting in trouble by doing this and turned to be and said “Yeah, I could do that.” In one quick motion he picks me up. I put my arms around his neck and look at the camera. All I can say is his beautiful strong warm torso was against my body. To that I say…my knees were a bit weak. After much mental pep talks in line, I decided to be a bit ballsy and turned to Stephen and said “I have a question.” I said this right after he set me down. “Yeah?” He responds “Are you going to the dance tonight?” I ask anxious, nervous and again trying to keep my voice steady. He looks dead into my eyes (what I could only describe as him looking deep into my soul) and with a smoulder he said: “I’ll Be There.” To which I quickly responded “Then I’ll see you there.” I had to get out of that room so fast because I honestly felt like I was going to melt and my knees were going to give out on me.  Had Stephen R McQueen just flirted and eye smouldered me? I was in cloud 9 at this point.

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 It was now close to 3 in the afternoon and I was yet to eat lunch. I vlogged the experience of having Stephen smoulder me and meeting him. I then grabbed some lunch and went back to the main auditorium. Again they showed us a few more music videos preparing us for the next guests: Candice Accola and Michael Trevino (aka: Caroline Forbes and Tyler Lockwood).

Candice and Michael as Caroline and Tyler

So their panel was very much a formal one. This was Candice’s first TVD Con (even though she’s been on the show for 4 seasons and is one of the main supporting actresses). They have great chemistry and joked with each other quite a bit along the way. We also got to hear the banana story, which Candice told us. It was a very intimate scene between Caroline and Tyler and she was in underwear and she thought it’d be funny to put a banana in her underwear, to which Michael said nothing the entire filming of the scene. It was pretty hillarious we were all cracking up and Candice was so embarassed. After a few questions on paper, the Hillywood girls came around with a mic having people asks questions directly. I thought I had a pretty good question for Candice, which I had given a lot of thought to, before the event. I got up and said ” I love you both, but sorry Michael this one is for Candice (she just looked at him with a glance of ‘take that’) What do you think was the defining moment where Caroline went from a ditzy high school cheerleader to a strong independent woman? And do you consider her to be a role model to young girls?” She responded (i am paraphrasing because she was very eloquent and sweet and gave a very wordy response) ” It would take me hours to pin point exactly the moment that Caroline made that transition but I’d say it definitely happened in season 2. She gained her humanity back when she became a vampire. But she’s been learning so much and really growing as a young woman. And if all that learning and growing up is empowering young girls then I’d be happy to hear that Caroline is a role model for them. But I definitely like how Caroline has grown and developed as a person.” I was pretty proud of myself and really enjoyed her response and the entire time she was looking directly at me and I thought that was just amazing because it felt like she was talking just to me and not to a group of over 2,000 people. The funniest part of the whole thing was definitely when Nate hid in the audience and put up his hand to ask a question. Candice immediately knew who it was but Trevino took a bit. Nate asked “If either of you were to get in a romantic relationship with Kol what would happen?” Trevino answered first by saying “He’d be okay with it as long as when they kissed there was no tongue involved.” Candice then answered simply “Can he handle a banana in my underwear?” Nate then replied “I think he’s better off dead.” They seem like lovely people though. So before I noticed time was up and that panel was over.

(Sorry this is such a long post, it was a very eventful long weekend. If you need a break, go grab some snacks. I’ll be here…Okay, you back? Awesome!)

 After this I stayed on the auditorium and watched the MC present on the relationships of the show. Firstly I am going to just mention that he mispronounced Stefan and Alaric’s name. We were not happy about that. But this was when I got to talking to Caroline. We kept talking about the show and different relationships. She was very sweet and I’m so glad I got to talk and hang out with her. After what felt like forever of the guy talking they announced that they were going to start Stephen’s, Candice’s, Charlie’s and Tyler’s autograph signing. Now this was the turning point for me. Nate had been signing for quite some time now and he was talking to everyone that got an autograph. So when they announced they were closing ticket sales in 30 minutes, I knew I’d kick myself if I didn’t get the pictures I had just taken autographed. I run outside and buy autograph tickets. I then wait since they had been calling people up for autographs by rows: Gold first, then preferred, then general admission (and within general admission there was pdf file aka pre-purchase or ticket bought at the convention). I then get to talking to Caroline and she learns her friends had planned a night out and was now unable to get the 3 autographs she bought (Nate, Stephen and Charlie). Well her luck was I was also going to Stephen and Nate and so I offered to get her autographs for her. I figured I’d want someone to do it for me if I couldn’t be there instead of it going to waste. She was so happy with this she did the nicest thing anyone could have possibly ever done for me. She offered to let me be in her picture with Ian Somerhalder (Damon Salvatore) and Paul Wesley (Stefan Salvatore). I couldn’t believe this. It was so nice of her and I double checked like a million times if she was okay with this. She was. So she leaves to go out with her friends and I stay in the auditorium waiting to get the autographs. I then go check on Nate’s autograph line, since it had been so long and taking forever. He really was taking his time and he had been the only one of the celebs who had been going around all day talking to people. Luckily the line was incredibly short, so I get in line and I’m the second to last person in line. When it’s my turn he says “Hello, Vicky. Sorry for the wait” (we had put pieces of paper to personalize it.) “How’s your day been so far?” To which I said ” Not to worry. It’s been really great. Yours?” He said “really enjoying myself.” He had previously been asking the girl ahead of me if she was going to party and that it was a Saturday night. So of course when my turn came around and i manned up and said “So are you going to party tonight?” And he said “Well my definition of partying is very different than most people. I’m probably going to hang out with the guys from the cast and then probably stop by the dance.” And i quickly say “I’ll be at the dance.” and he says “that’s great. well have fun.” But my conversation got cut short due to the annoying tweens behind me. (And they wonder why they get such a bad rep.) But she was on the phone with her mom very loudly “Mom, I’m two feet away from him. Mom, hold on mom. Please wait, like he’s right here. Mom I’ll be right out.” And then she proceeds by giving him the phone as he’s signing my picture. See I was counting on a few extra minutes to talk to him since I had two pictures to be signed. But as he’s signing my picture he’s on the phone with the girls mom apologizing for taking so long and thanking her for her patience. He then ends the conversation and re-reads what he wrote on my picture. (Which I say he wrote what was on his subconscious) My picture says “Off To Get Married.” Which i smile everytime I think about it, because I was the only one who he picked up in his arms, and I’m pretty sure no one else got as sweet of an autograph as I did. It sincerely melts my heart every time I look at it (Which is why I put it as my phone background, DUH)

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it truly is the most perfect photo. Then I get in line to get Charlie’s autograph for Caroline. He was very sweet too, but honestly nothing too memorable. He’s a nice guy and all but for some reason this time the Aussie totally won me over. And then began the anxiety issue. The party was going to start at 10:45. I still needed to get ready, eat dinner and get my autograph with Stephen. The line was huge and I wasn’t sure what to do. So I quickly went to the restaurant in the hotel and ordered the cheapest and quickest thing on the menu. I basically burn my tongue trying eat it fast. I then leave back to the auditorium to find the line almost gone and only 2 more people were in line behind me. To which Stephen yelled out “FREEDOM!” reenacting Braveheart. Girls there is one way to Stephen’s heart which I learned by being at the end of the line: Pizza & Donuts. Because as soon as 2 separate fans showed him they brought him Pizza and Donuts he bit his lower lips and opened his eyes, like he wanted it bad. So there you go. Stephen signed my picture in a very interesting location. He had room all over the picture and instead he decides to sign on my butt. (I’ll post a picture of it tomorrow).

After the autograph I run to get ready for the party. It does take my 40 minutes to get ready and I walk in a bit late to the party. I buy a drink, find a friend I had made earlier in the day and sit down. After we are told to come to the dance floor we begin dancing some. And while on the dance floor the boys walk in: Stephen, Nate, Charlie and Michael. Now we were not allowed to take pictures with them, but it was nice to see them. I was too nervous to go up to Nate because to be perfectly honest he was the only one out of all of them that I really wanted to talk to. He of course was surrounded by girls and these two girls were talking to him for the longest time, which I got a bit jealous. That’s when I met Kelli, who was giving me quick tips on how to win Nate over. All she said was “The way to Nate’s heart is by talking about Mali.” And I of course was like “Who’s Mali?” And she was like “Quick lesson time” She then shows me the most adorable pup EVER!

Also I wasn’t sure what to talk to him about. I just knew I wanted to talk to him. After he walked away and me not having the chance to talk to him, I say hi to another friend I had made, Myka. She then proceeds to ask me if I had said hi to Nate to which I reply “sadly no.” And she’s like “Come with me.” She taps Nate on the shoulder and he turns around. She then says “Nate, this is my friend Vicky. This is her first convention.” He looks at me and gives me a hug and says “Well Hello. You enjoying yourself?” And I say “Absolutely.” He said “good good.” I then lean in closer put my hand on his shoulder chest area and say “Well after today you became my favorite character of the show.” And he says “Aw, well thanks so much you’re really sweet.” And I reply. “You’re a really sweet and nice person.” He then gives me another hug and  moves on. I was above cloud 9 at this point. He really truly is an amazing person. I can’t wait to see what he does next, because he’s definitely got me as a fan for life. I then go to other side of the room, where I see Stephen. I notice that they are telling him to move so he can leave. I walk over to the general area he was going to walk by and as I am standing there he begins walking. He then looks in my direction and smiles. He starts to go forward to give me a hug and puts a hand on my waist. Somebody then gets his attention and so he turns, with his hand still on my waist. At this point I am a bit in shock at what’s happening. He then says something to answer the girl that catches me off guard and so my faces probably changed into the stupidest facial expression of happiness and shocked. He then comes back to face me and finishes the hug. After the hug I say “I just wanted to say hi.” And he’s like “Well hi.” He then keeps going forward, but at one point he turns back around to answer someone tapping him on the shoulder, and again we catch each others eyes for another 5 seconds and we both smile. It was nice. Then my friend Myka, finds me again and asks if I had met Charlie yet. So I say no. And she goes over and introduces me again but Charlie shakes my hand only. And then before he leaves I tap him on the shoulder and say “I want a proper hug.” And he gives me a tight bear hug. It was really very nice. Then right before all the boys leave Nate picks up the mic and starts talking. He thanks everyone for the amazing support and kindness we’ve all shown towards him. He then informs us that unfortunately he has to fly back tomorrow morning to Atlanta to work on the End It Movement and that he’s off to save the world, because that’s what he does. And he is just so humble and grateful to everyone who has been so supportive. So basically like I said before, the sweetest, most humble amazing guy (not even celebrity just guy) I’ve ever met.

The night then went on with me dancing with Kelli and meeting up with Katie (who I had met earlier) and meet Breanna and Ruby. We all hang out for the rest of the night until 1:30 am where I am exhausted and decide to head home.

So guys, it basically took me all day to write this entry. Therefore day 2 will be posted tomorrow. Keep an eye out and make sure you come back because Sunday was when I got to meet Paul and Ian. :)

Much Love <3

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